she never wanted for her selfe ,just everbody else, she never took she just gave,i loved her while she was here,but i should have shown her more,now she's gone to heaven and i cant wait to knock on heavens door,,,I LOVE YOU BABICAKES     carl

I often contemplate my childhood, Mom

I am a mother now and so I know,

Hard work is mixed together with the fun;

You learned that when you raised me long ago.

I think of all the things you gave to me:

Sacrifice, devotion, love, and tears,

Your heart, your mind, your energy and soul-

All these you spent on me throughout the years.

You loved me with a never failing love

You gave me strength and sweet security,

And then you did the hardest thing of all:

You let me seperate and set me free.

Every day I try my best to be

A mother like the mom you were to me.
                                   
               

She had pain and tears in her eyes.

I could hear her soft whimpered cries.

All alone she suffered, but I was there.

There was no doubt that she needed some care.

Now she is gone, I won't see her anymore,

And the truth that I know and the dread,

Is that God took her home,

to that place way up high. She is gone,

She looks down on me from the sky.

She is missed, but her love still runs on.

She now has no pain and tears in her eyes,

She smiles now without any cries.

She's not alone anymore, by my side she stays.

So there's no need for goodbyes.

"Missing Momma"

The sun came up this morning

It wasn't very bright

My dark mood casts a shadow

It's hard to see the light

We all have just one mother

And now that her life on earth is done

The emptiness and loss I feel

Make it hard to see the sun

Tomorrow is a brand new day

May the pain and sadness lighten

I will remember all her love

And then the sky will brighten

Gone is not forgotten

Her love remains behind

She's traveled in a new direction

Love knows no space or time

I will always love her

She will care for me from above

She will send me starlight and rainbows

To remind me of her love

"Mommy"

As i sat watching by your bed

A million thoughts ran through my head

Of just how much were you aware

Did you know that I was there

Could you feel the love I sent

In whispered word, or prayers bent

Upon my cross as I asked God

To spare your life for my selfish cause

So that I could tell you just once more

"I love you Mommy," as I had before

And we could chat like days of old

Over coffee cups all rimmed with gold

And laugh and joke or just to share

Some small hurt and perhaps a tear

To talk of the past or things yet to do

To sniffle and sneeze and say, "Bless you."

All these dreams now hang in shreds

As i sit here with my bowed down head

And ponder on these sad thoughts

Just to wonder, "Was it all for naught?" 

"Never Alone"

I feel you in the morning

When I first awake

Your thought is with me

With each decision I make

You'd been around forever

Since the first breath I took

Now I have to go on alone

But for love,  I need not look

Cause by what you bestowed

In our short time together

Will last in my heart

Forever and ever

Although you've left

And now walk above

I'm never alone

I'm wrapped in your love

Enjoy now your long awaited reward

Feel peace that your love continues on

What was taught to me, will be taught to mine

Cause you live on in me even after you're gone

Do not stand at my grave and weep

I am not there, I do not sleep

I am a thousand winds that blow,

I am the diamond glints on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain,

I am the gentle autumns rain.

When you awaken in the mornings hush,

I am the swift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circled flight,

I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry

I am not there, I did not die.

There's a room in heaven

With windows all around

For my precious mother

To look down on this ground

From your room in heaven

You're not far at all you see

For my precious mother

You're in my memory

So my precious mother be happy

And someday you will see

Someone will be there with you

And that someone will be me

So until that house in heaven

Has an extra room for me

I'll keep you locked up in my heart

And in my memory

If tears could build a stairway

And memories were a lane

I'd walk right up to heaven

And bring you home again

No farewell words were spoken

No time to say goodbye

You were gone before we knew it

And only God knows why

My heart still aches in sadness

And secret tears still flow

What it meant to lose you

No one will ever know

Think of me and know I am with you

Think of me and smile

Think of me and know our parting

Is only for a while

On the days you feel so desperate

To see my smiling face

Just believe in your heart I'm with you

And that I'm in a beautiful place

So think of me and remember

All the memories in your heart

And believe and know that this is true

We are never really apart